FADING AWAY

2007-04-06T13:28:00.000-07:00

Do you love to see me cry, as you hear me scream?

Do you wait to see my tears, is that what you dream?

Do you breathe in my agony, does my pain comfort you?

In my sadness do you laugh, they all say it is true,

Do you swim in the blood I shed, is that your smile I see?

If this is what makes you happy, I empty all of me.

2007-04-04T05:54:00.000-07:00

You are my laughter, you are my pain

When I see you smile, I feel sane

You are the thorns, you are the rose

When I saw you first, I knew the path I chose

You are my road less travelled, you are my highway

I wait for you, for that something you say

You are my darkness, you are my tears

Why can't I let go of the one my heart fears?

You ripped my heart, my life you lit

An obsession it was, now just a habit.

2007-04-04T05:49:00.000-07:00

She stands on the mountain, her eyes looking down,

Wind pushing her to the edge, she doesn't frown,

She sees her distorted reflection in the ocean below,

Turns around at the world that fails to see her glow,

One step closer to the place she rests in peace forever,

Away from here, away from him, thoughts make her shiver,

Closes her eyes, he is all that she can see,

She takes a step ahead, to reach that somewhere she longs to be।

2007-04-04T05:40:00.000-07:00

Why do you wake up every morning?

To wander under these city lights,

Only to sleep with our sadness at nights,

Why do you seek pain in pleasure?

To hide from yourself, scared to be happy,

Pain is a part of you, illusion can it be?

Why do you love him till you rest in peace?

You see love in his hatered, as you wake up each day,

You bleed from within, "I hate you" he says,

He smiles at your tears,

Laughs at your darkest fears,

You wake up every morning , breathing hard,

Under these city lights, your tears you guard।

2007-04-04T05:01:00.000-07:00

I look at these people, so petty, so plastic,

hey talk to each other like hollow vacuum sticks,

The smiles they wear, happiness can it be?

When tears roll down their face, is it sadness you see?

The laugh and play when their heart bleeds,

When you look into their eyes, do you see what it reads?

They hold you when you fall, they fight all your fears,

Do you believe what they say, what your heart hears?

They don't know themselves, they don't know you,

They life you high, let you go, the someone you always thought you knew.

2007-04-04T04:46:00.000-07:00

Her laughs echo her innocence,

The way she hopped and played across the fence,

He jumped into her life, she dove too deep,

She drowned in his arms, she had forgotten to weep,

He took her hand, they ran far,

She gave up everything, he healed her scar,

Now she lay shattered, her innocence he stole,

Betrayal is all she can sense now, engulfing her soul.

2007-04-04T04:18:00.000-07:00

She looks out of the window, she smiles,

The breeze blowing on her face, she ran a thousand miles,

She smiles to herself again, feeling the devouring pain,

She still sits here , watching the stubborn rain,

It doesn't wash away the blood that stains her hand,

She thinks of you, your blood she holds, leaving you under the sand.

2007-04-04T04:01:00.000-07:00

They lay together, cuddled up all night,

She opens her eyes, strokes his hair, feels his plight,

She loves him to death, she thinks again,

To stay with him, she has to be his heartsbane,

She sucks his blood,life so short, she feels the taste,

Closer to him, his smell so familiar, not a moment she will waste,

They wake up in each others arms, he kisses her gently, holding her close,

When it is dark again, his blood she will suck, her daily dose.

2007-04-04T03:54:00.000-07:00

They see each other, they feel the pain,

Drowning in their world, they pray again,

They looks outside, they see those devouring eyes,

She holds him closer, there in truth in her eyes,

He is love to her, an eternal feeling,

When she hinks of him, her heart wants to dane and sing,

What is underneath all this flesh and blood?

Not anger, not lust, all these emotions flood,

He runs, far away from her, runs from love,

Scared of himself, pacing faster but how?

Love conquers all, they say, is it true?

She tried to stop him, ripped herself apart, this feeling only grew,

Now she waits all alone, her tears her only friend,

She looks for him eevry place she goes, doing this, a lifetime she will spend.

2007-04-03T14:40:00.000-07:00

I walk on this dessert, I walk alone

I bleed for who I am, I feel so torn

My throat is dry, heart weak

I look up at the sky, what do I seek?

Birds don't fly, people don't talk

I take another step, with my tears I walk

Alas! I see a shadow, I wear a smile

Following it in hope, I walk a mile

I talk to it, I cry and laugh

As I try to hold it, I cut it in half

I see the sun, these tears still flow

Awe- struck by his evanescent glow

I fall to my knee, I fall too hard

The shadow becomes me, becomes my eternal guard.

2007-04-03T14:33:00.000-07:00

I look at you, I see me,

A reflection of what I used to be,

You see these tears, do you see me bleed?

Do you feel my pain, do you know all I need?

I made you laugh, gave you more pain,

Trapped in my world, I see no gain,

I run to my grave, trip and fall,

As I close my eyes, your name I call.

2007-04-03T14:14:00.000-07:00

He hates her for who she is, why wouldn't he?

Anywhere close to her, is not where he wants to be,

She falls again, too weak to get up this time,

Feels safe on this hard ground, feels it is a crime,

He is no where here to rescue her, no where in this crowd,

They don't see her curled up on the ground, they look so proud,

Some look down at her now, smile, pity on their face,

Some ignore her, they don't hear her case,

He watches her slow death, he tries to look away,

As she disappears, for them it is just another day.

2007-03-27T09:25:00.000-07:00

I run to that village, I hear there is life

To remind myself I am human, I carry a knife

These trees so green, sky so blue

Do I believe my eyes, can this be true?

I see them people, laugh and play

But I feel my pulse wither away

I hold my breath to feel life around me

I call out to them, their ignorance

I seeI pull out my knife, slit my hand

My blood flowing down this happy land

They run to me, to my rescue I think

I feel too weak but my soul won't sink

The village people play again, now with my blood

My life is all I sense now and these random thoughts that flood

They laugh and run around me, their happiness I feel

As I struggle to open my eyes, my cold grave they seal.

2007-03-27T09:17:00.000-07:00

Blood rolling down my cheeks like tears,

Showing today what the eye fears,

I clench my fist, I hold my breath,

As I feel the fading pain, I welcome death,

Are you holding on to me as I disappear?

Or will you place a rose on my grave and shed a silent tear?

2007-03-27T09:05:00.000-07:00

I look around the people gathered here,

Recognizing they’re from far and near,

You are sitting in a corner in this crowded room,

The stars shine bright but I can’t see the moon,

I walk through the darkness moving closer as I see,

Your eyes filled with tears like they never knew me,

The silence grows louder as you take my hand,

You are death itself to me, I vanish from my land.

2007-03-27T08:58:00.000-07:00

She falls to the bed, naked and alone,

Staring at her white satin dress she had worn,

Her eyes made of jade, hair of silk,

Her smile like an angel, her skin like she bathed in milk,

She closes her eyes, she dreams again,

She twists and turns to forget her pain,

This beauty bears the ugliness only she can feel,

She walks to her window, jumps out, now her soul can heal,

She falls to the ground, falls drop dead,

She wears a smile now, a white rose turned red.

2007-03-27T08:53:00.000-07:00

Do we hear the truth about Adam and Eve?

Who sent the serpent, Satan we believe?

Why didn't God stop Eve, why did she give in?

Why didn't God stop Adam, why did he leave her to sin?

Her first bite of the forbidden fruit, the end of all humanity,

Where did Adam walk away, was he in search of sanity?

Are God and Satan all the same, are we a part of their plan?

They set their stage, the garden of Eden, birth is death to man.

2007-03-27T08:37:00.000-07:00

They walk a thousand miles, salvation they seek,

Yearning for his blessings, they fast till their minds are weak,

Temples they visit, all night and day,

"He is watching us, be good", you hear them say,

I look around me, questioning his existence,

Anger, lust, greed, pain, does all this make sense?

Losing faith in themselves, they run to him again,

Close their eyes, cry to him, all this keeps them sane,

Look inside you, open your eyes, you will find him there,

He is no one but you, don't look outside if you care.

2007-03-27T06:23:00.001-07:00

She goes to bed feeling lonely again,

Hoping to see a better tomorrow, hoping to be sane,

She wakes up and sees the bright light,

She steps out of the door, this feels so right,

Her feet on the wet grass, eyes looking at the clear blue sky,

Sudden memories of the past, she takes a deep breath, no more she will cry,

She feels this morning, she feels her heart,

Smiles like never before, feels her pain depart,

She smells the fresh air, sees children play,

Sings her favorite song, who took all her pain away?

The pain still eats her from within, she sees a bright beam,

Wakes up to this world with tears in her eyes, wakes up from her dream.

2007-03-27T06:14:00.000-07:00

Oh so beautiful she is, this six year old,

She smiles like an angel, she talks so bold,

Innocence in her deeds, he says he loves her,

She runs to him, they play hide and seek, this makes her wonder,

He touches her, she can't think anymore,

She feels ugly, he doesn't stop, she feels soar,

She doesn't move but her soul leaves her body,

He plays with her everyday,there is no one else she can see,

"Don't tell mommy, she won't believe you" he says,

He leaves her feeling hollow, shattering all the dreams she wanted to chase,

She hears the door open, he is here to play again,

She is dead to herself, she doesn't feel any pain.

2007-03-27T05:54:00.000-07:00

I fall on you, your eyes look at me,
I breathe on you, make me who I want to be,
Their stare so cold, they close in on me,
I try to break free, its only you I don't see,
They walk on me, don't hear my screams,
I still wait for you, don't shatter my dreams,
One man places his foot on my chest,
Bigger, stronger, bolder than the rest,
I know that touch, I recognize that pain,
You smile at me, your feet pressing harder again,
I think of the past, think of what I did to you,
I am the end of me, now you know it too.

2007-03-27T05:08:00.000-07:00

What will I do on the last day on earth?
Will I think of life after death or rebirth?
Will I look into your eyes and say "I love you"?
You look away, like before, you feel nothing new,
Will they forgive me for all I have done?
For the last time, I strech my arms, looking at the sun,
What will be the last thought running through my mind?
Will I sit with my friends, happiness I find?
I look back at my life, I look back at you,
My heart was always pure, my love for you is true,
I breathe my last, will I rest in peace?
I will always be with you, only my body leaves.