I run to that village, I hear there is life
To remind myself I am human, I carry a knife
These trees so green, sky so blue
Do I believe my eyes, can this be true?
I see them people, laugh and play
But I feel my pulse wither away
I hold my breath to feel life around me
I call out to them, their ignorance
I seeI pull out my knife, slit my hand
My blood flowing down this happy land
They run to me, to my rescue I think
I feel too weak but my soul won't sink
The village people play again, now with my blood
My life is all I sense now and these random thoughts that flood
They laugh and run around me, their happiness I feel
As I struggle to open my eyes, my cold grave they seal.
Blood rolling down my cheeks like tears,
Showing today what the eye fears,
I clench my fist, I hold my breath,
As I feel the fading pain, I welcome death,
Are you holding on to me as I disappear?
Or will you place a rose on my grave and shed a silent tear?
I look around the people gathered here,
Recognizing they’re from far and near,
You are sitting in a corner in this crowded room,
The stars shine bright but I can’t see the moon,
I walk through the darkness moving closer as I see,
Your eyes filled with tears like they never knew me,
The silence grows louder as you take my hand,
You are death itself to me, I vanish from my land.
She falls to the bed, naked and alone,
Staring at her white satin dress she had worn,
Her eyes made of jade, hair of silk,
Her smile like an angel, her skin like she bathed in milk,
She closes her eyes, she dreams again,
She twists and turns to forget her pain,
This beauty bears the ugliness only she can feel,
She walks to her window, jumps out, now her soul can heal,
She falls to the ground, falls drop dead,
She wears a smile now, a white rose turned red.
Do we hear the truth about Adam and Eve?
Who sent the serpent, Satan we believe?
Why didn't God stop Eve, why did she give in?
Why didn't God stop Adam, why did he leave her to sin?
Her first bite of the forbidden fruit, the end of all humanity,
Where did Adam walk away, was he in search of sanity?
Are God and Satan all the same, are we a part of their plan?
They set their stage, the garden of Eden, birth is death to man.
They walk a thousand miles, salvation they seek,
Yearning for his blessings, they fast till their minds are weak,
Temples they visit, all night and day,
"He is watching us, be good", you hear them say,
I look around me, questioning his existence,
Anger, lust, greed, pain, does all this make sense?
Losing faith in themselves, they run to him again,
Close their eyes, cry to him, all this keeps them sane,
Look inside you, open your eyes, you will find him there,
He is no one but you, don't look outside if you care.
She goes to bed feeling lonely again,
Hoping to see a better tomorrow, hoping to be sane,
She wakes up and sees the bright light,
She steps out of the door, this feels so right,
Her feet on the wet grass, eyes looking at the clear blue sky,
Sudden memories of the past, she takes a deep breath, no more she will cry,
She feels this morning, she feels her heart,
Smiles like never before, feels her pain depart,
She smells the fresh air, sees children play,
Sings her favorite song, who took all her pain away?
The pain still eats her from within, she sees a bright beam,
Wakes up to this world with tears in her eyes, wakes up from her dream.
Oh so beautiful she is, this six year old,
She smiles like an angel, she talks so bold,
Innocence in her deeds, he says he loves her,
She runs to him, they play hide and seek, this makes her wonder,
He touches her, she can't think anymore,
She feels ugly, he doesn't stop, she feels soar,
She doesn't move but her soul leaves her body,
He plays with her everyday,there is no one else she can see,
"Don't tell mommy, she won't believe you" he says,
He leaves her feeling hollow, shattering all the dreams she wanted to chase,
She hears the door open, he is here to play again,
She is dead to herself, she doesn't feel any pain.
I fall on you, your eyes look at me,
I breathe on you, make me who I want to be,
Their stare so cold, they close in on me,
I try to break free, its only you I don't see,
They walk on me, don't hear my screams,
I still wait for you, don't shatter my dreams,
One man places his foot on my chest,
Bigger, stronger, bolder than the rest,
I know that touch, I recognize that pain,
You smile at me, your feet pressing harder again,
I think of the past, think of what I did to you,
I am the end of me, now you know it too.
What will I do on the last day on earth?
Will I think of life after death or rebirth?
Will I look into your eyes and say "I love you"?
You look away, like before, you feel nothing new,
Will they forgive me for all I have done?
For the last time, I strech my arms, looking at the sun,
What will be the last thought running through my mind?
Will I sit with my friends, happiness I find?
I look back at my life, I look back at you,
My heart was always pure, my love for you is true,
I breathe my last, will I rest in peace?
I will always be with you, only my body leaves.
